My beloveds

(Things that I like or have otherwise inspired me)

Em Essex

Their music, games, characters, and worldbuilding have inspired me endlessly since I found them all the way back in 2018, and I've been falling down the rabbithole ever since. The vibes of the Halley labs era stuff especially resonates with me, and has inspired my work in many, many ways over the years (and even inspired a character of mine!). My approach to writing under different aliases was also, of course, heavily inspired by what they've done with Halley labs/Lapfox. People that don't know them think the aliases are all different people (I used to be one of these people!)- but people that do don't have to dig to find everything, creating a happy medium that allows for exprimentation unburdened by people's expectations- something which I find especially inspiring as someone who is notirously indecisive with how he expresses himself! Aurastys especially inspires me, as it's my favourite artist to listen to while writing. My favourite album is Halley labs associates - 2yr if you're wondering :)

Chronicle of the Dark Star by Kevin Emerson

The series that I taught myself how to write with- and my favourite book series of all time! If you look closely, bits of Kevin's writing style can STILL be distinctly seen in my own writing style to this day. I highly recommend this book series as well as Drifters if you like Kaivasita, and especially if you like sci fi- and ESPECIALLY especially if you like hard sci-fi, because this series is what got me into it! I genuinely think its the closest you can possibly get to a perfect book series. I still bawl my eyes out at the ending even all these re-reads later, and I think that says a lot, because I don't cry easily.

Kid icarus: Uprising

What isn't there to say about uprising? It's nintendo's magnum opus, and still one of my favourite games to this day. I have very pleasant memories of my first playthrough, where I'd come home from school and play a chapter per day (mostly for my wrist's sake, they are not kidding when they say that game fucks up your wrist), almost like an advent calendar. This game's series went on to become a hyperfixation of mine that lasted well over a year- if you followed an account called 'Pitposter' on tumblr or twitter, that was me during the height of my fixation, hi! The fixation also resulted in me making an AU called 'Kid icarus: rebirth" that I sadly, only began to seriously work on as my fixation died. Kyrie used to be from this AU, and was reused for Kaivasita later on! Someone's headcanons (can't find who now) for how the weapons/pit's flight worked also inspired zyrgia and kyrzoa and how the angels in Kaivasita fly, along side how their weapons work! Oh, and one more minor thing... Neowise owes his origins to a dream I had about Kid icarus, where he appeared as a strange, black and blue version of Pit. I redesigned him, and planned to make him a reoccuring character in my work, until I just decided he'd fit better in Kaivasita, and the rest is history.

Miitopia

Ah, if it isn't my favourite adlibs RPG! I've played through the entirety of this game (minus post game...) over 5 times now, and it still hasn't gotten old to me. Back when I had switch online (to redownload characters), I do my annual replay of this game, usually with my characters, and every time I come out the other side with a whole heap of new ideas for character dynamics and relationships- and sometimes even a few plot points! I can't possibly recommend this game enough, just do yourself a favour and go in blind, play it with your characters, and set the great sage as someone (fictional or real) that you deeply care about. It improves the exprience a ton!

I've actually recorded myself playing this several times! I have a whole playlist dedicated to it on my youtube channel if you're interested.

Pokemon Sun and Moon/Ultra sun and Ultra moon

My favourite pokemon games... and still the only ones I've played that I've liked (and before you shout at me, it's because I haven't played any of the games before that gen! I will get around to it someday!). The general vibes and look of the games, as well as their writing introduced me to everything I like in a peice of media as a kid, and I spent hours upon hours in both versions of the games. I still look back on them fondly, even if I don't have a lot to say about them now and days (I've... unforunately fallen out of love with pokemon a lot in recent years thanks to how badly the recent games have let me down). Also necrozma, god I love necrozma. I have a plushie of it and a figurine that sits on my desk. I have a closer attachment to my first necrozma, Eclipse than I do any of my starters and I think that says a lot about me.

B3313

My favourite super mario 64 romhack (and just romhack in general), and something which I've sank hours upon hours into. I'll never forget the memories I had discovering it for the first time through an old friend I used to have, and exploring some of the areas + expriencing the horror events for the first time myself. I've become very familiar with almost everything in the game by this point (still haven't gotten even close to beating it, though...). It, and it's general vibes are something that still influence and inspire me heavily, as I feel it's one the few things that does the whole 'liminal space' horror effectively- nothing quite beats the dread of finding an area you've never seen before 20+ hours into playing. That entire era of internet horror back in 2020 when the giga leak happened and everyone was hopping on the every copy of super mario 64 is personalized train is very nostalgic for me, and is still something I look back on incredibly fondly.

The Garden/Campsite

"Something you made yourself? Sounds like SOMEBODY likes the taste of their own cock!" Yes yes, this is something I made myself, but it's a special exception because the impact it had on my life was more or so caused by things surrounding it than the actual peice of media. In case you don't know what I'm talking about, The Garden and Campsite are both roblox games I made and passively worked on out of boredom when I was a kid sometime in 2018/19. They weren't exactly 'games', and were more or so simple hangout places where you'd venture to all these different worlds with your friends (and if you were one of my friends, mess around with admin commands).

Back when I actively played roblox (or, played at all), me and some of my earliest online friends would play this game just about whenever we wanted to hang out. We'd chill out and chat, dick around with the admin, explore the (very big) main area, blow it up, and lose track of eachother because someone accidentally went through the wrong gate. And, sometimes, if the day was bad enough, exprience a massive falling out that ended with someone leaving in tears, or some other generally traumatic, friend group related event. To say this game has a lot of history is an understatement.

And, surprise! It, and the things that happened there, are what Kaivasita still owes a MAJORITY of it's inspirations to! A lot of the universes in both games appear in Kaivasita at some point (ibeit, often heavily redesigned), and several major plot points are inspired or even based off actual things that happened to me and my friends while playing the game. Now and days, both games lie dormant, it's time in the sun finally running it's course as I gradually move away from roblox, and roblox as a platform decides to stick more knives up its ass. Many things in it have been broken for years (admin has completely broken sometime 2025), and it's only a matter of time until it's fully unplayable or some update culls half the games on the platform or some shit. If you haven't guessed, there's a reason the inspiration is just these two games and not roblox itself.

HOWEVER, you can still exprience it now, as of writing, as far as I'm concerned, the game is still up and running fine- but I don't routinely check it, so don't take this as gospel. Also, for both our sakes, don't get mad if you find something poorly aged in it- it's been completely untouched since 2022 and I'm not nearly as active on that site anymore. If it doesn't work, or you're like me and hate having to wait 10 minutes for roblox to update every time you go to play one thing, check out these two videos I uploaded that archive the entire game and everything it has to offer. The first video also preserves the orginal audio before roblox removed all music from their platform, and before any other praticuarly stupid, game breaking updates

Honourable mentions

(Things that inspired me that I can't say nearly as much about, but I still love to bits)

Oneohtrix point never

My other all time favourite musician. I've been listening to his work since about 2019(?), and his albums (ESPECIALLY garden of delete) inspired the general feel of Kaivasita a TON and his work makes up a majority of my writing playlist. I routinely listen to Magic when I'm having a bad time, and it helps me calm down very easily. 'Stress waves' off Returnal also cures any headache I have almost immediately, please listen to it if you can it's one of the most beautiful peices of music ever made.

Jim Nopédie

Another favourite artist of mine, and one which is CRITCALLY overlooked. I listen to his music a lot while writing and it seriously helps set the mood. Notably, ocean's end, the chaotic casino owned by the chaos god 'Devin', was inspired by a dream I had after listening to minus worlds, which features a song about an underwater casino (though it's much more atmospheric and eerie than the chaotic one from the dream + kaivasita). Please go listen to his music + support him on bandcamp if you can!

Innovation Inc. Spaceship

A game on roblox I played religiously when I was 12-14, and after revisting for the first time in years recently, I realize has heavily inspired me in ways I haven't realized until now. Both the hijinix that happen naturally while playing it (god I love the people who roleplay in that game) and art direction of the game as a whole rubbed off on me back then, and it still has a very special place in my heart- even if roblox itself really doesn't anymore. The place you end up if you use the teleporter during a ship ending event + the creatures there still live rent free in the back of my mind.

Final destination

My all time favourite movie series, and another MAJOR insipration for Kaivasita that I don't talk about very often. I own every installment in the series, and have even read some of the books (and I'll add, dead reckoning is one of my favourite books!). I go through brief hyperfixations on it every now and then even now.

Minecraft

My favourite game- what else do I have to say? I have easily thousands of hours in it across all versions, and while I don't play it all the time, it's stayed my favourite for a damn good reason.

Scape and Run: Parasites

A minecraft mod for 1.12 that adds parasites that slowly take over your world! The unsung best minecraft horror mod, and a mod that adds a serious, signifigant challenge to the game. The few playthroughs I've gotten to do with it (since it's intended to be a multiplayer exprience) and what resulted from them have HEAVILY inpsired the nihilgenesis and return to dust as a whole. It's really a shame I never seem to have anyone to play it with...